Phewwww! Went back to Singapore for 6 days, graduation in NP, 21st birthday, meet-ups, shopping, eating ...

So many things yet so little time! Back in Sydney and starting the exams busyness already. 

Sighh so not looking forward! Only good thing is Melbourne trip after exams! 

Nonetheless, I had the best one week/one month of my life. Thank you God for being so kind to me!

Anyways picturesssssss! 

So many mixed feelings about leaving this time round, I will miss everyone. Thank you for being a part of my precious part of my life! 

My unofficial first day of school. Had my orientation today and mannn I feel I'm too old for orientations. 

Going in as a transfer year 2 student is definitely weird. Hah it's like everyone around me are Year 1 students, fresh from high school, and I'm like errrr a transfer year 2 student, completed my internship and only coming in for 2 years to get my Degree.

Man it just feels weird.

Must be the first week of school kind of jitters.

I miss going around in campus with my bunch of clique friends, doing practically everything together from walking to bus stop, going to washrooms, having lunch, slacking in the library etc

Sighhh I really hope I would be able to get used to this place soon, get some fruitful experiences and meet more new good friends and company.

p/s I miss everything in Singapore. I miss my clique, going to poly with them and our frequent outings after school and the kind of silly things we do after classes.

I guess it's just really really time to just grow up and get out from my comfort zone.

But I guess no complains cause I choose this road, and hopefully, I will be able to call this place home, for at least the next 2 years.

Still waiting for my CoE from UNSW for my Visa, waiting for medical check-up letter, waiting for approval from MOE for my deferment.

Everything is so uncertain right now. 

Everyday I wait for emails, phone calls and more emails.

Is life really all about waiting?

Really wish all this could end soon and a conclusion could be made.

The thrill feeling of getting a good deal... is quite priceless.

Did quite a bit (too much in fact) of shopping lately (Shucks mann I really don't wanna get a shock when I get my bank & card statement) but you know that feeling when you're able to get blouses for 6 bucks and dresses for less than 15 bucks kind of shopping?

That kind of thrill feeling. Not that kind, but THE feeling.

Hah it's like indescribable, but to make the long story short, 'I FEELLLL GOOOODDD'

Still feeling that twinge of guilt but shall not make this festive season a guilty one but it definitely has to be an enjoyable, joyful and blissful one.

Man besides feeling good from all the excessive shopping, I'm also glad for my 4 days break from work for CNY. Mannn it's like I SO DESERVE THIS BREAK kind of thing! 

So Happy CNY everyone! Hope you'll all be blessed with happiness, good health and prosperity!

I am and will be forever grateful for my family, because of them I don't need to work extremely hard for what I have and for this I am thankful for being extremely blessed.

It's been an incredibly hectic exhausting crazy month - November!

Sis's wedding prep and house shifting and not to mention late nights at work nearly drove me to the wall.

The wedding went so quickly, and to the contrary, the preparation took so long!! It's like a you-train-for-6-months-and-run-for-15-seconds-during-the-race kind of thing. But glad we managed to catch up with relatives, childhood friends and family friends during the wedding.

Am so glad everything is over now, life goes back to normal - I can slack on my weekends, and complain while awaiting the new working week ;p 

Was such a packed month that I couldn't even meet up with my awesome clique and seeing them after a month plus recently feels GOOOOD!!

I recently became so lethargic while trying to cope with work and decisions with unis and my career path and the latter is turning me into a person who feels like a person walking without a map.

Sighhh it feels terrible after so many years of effort, time and money, you start to sit back and realize maybe what you have been chasing is not what you want afterall.

I mean being in Accountancy is fine - good prospect, money and stable but I am unsure whether is this what I really want. And before deciding on my path on which uni to go, I really want to get what I really want, I mean really want. And not just don't mind doing kind of thing. Else history would repeat then again, going all out for good results - but then during my final year, I just ponder bout where and what I'm really going to do with my life.

This whole uni and what I am going to do with my life thing is really driving my crazy! It's making me being in illusion, then get back to reality and then back to my illusion again! 

Work has been exciting tiring brain-damaging fun. You name it, my job provides it. Having super nice seniors, bitching about funny weird people during meals, stuck in the jam and in the cab for 2 damn hours to get back to office from client's place, reaching the office before the sun rises and leaving the office after the sun sets, dinners with my intern colleagues after a terrible day being fooled around, sitting by Fullerton Hotel talking about sucky is it being an intern, staring at our computer screen waiting for something for you to do, having 2 more hours to complete vouching 74663048554885 documents, munching on rubbish during work going to another company for work related stuffs but end up meeting your friend who is also interning there etc

I really have a like-hate relationship with this job, seriously. I quite like the idea of looking at different industries and businesses for a couple of weeks, then you move on to the next business and industry especially in my situation where I totally have no idea what I want to be in future but then again, when you meet nice people, you just feel so reluctant to leave them and move on to the next team or you just love the client so much that you don't wanna pull out from that job kind of thing. You roughly get where I am coming from. 

But is this really what I wanna do after I graduate?

And then again, if not Accountancy, what am I going to do?

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the process of searching for my dream job is really making me really confused. Hopefully I won't wait till I'm 60 to find out my dream job.

Besides this what-am-I-going-to-do-issue, the next issue - where to go for uni?

Another long sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Whether to stay locally, or just accept my UNSW offer and leave in February right after my internship ends.

The issue is then again, what do I really want - to stay in somewhere I'm comfortable with and being in this environment, or should I just take the offer, and get out from my comfort zone and move on to another kind of environment.

There are so many what-if's running in my head now and I am definitely not competent enough to make my own decisions right now.

After a serious conversation with dad about this whole uni thing, it just dawned upon me all this while I never really consider and thought seriously about the question on what do I want to do in life and what I really want. Feels like it's a perfect epitome of a FML situation.

After all this thing about not being to make my own decisions, I sometimes suspect I suffer from some shit disorder that makes people cannot decide themselves even simple things like what to wear today and what to eat today.

Really need to sort what I really want by end of internship else I really would be in a FML situation.

During connect session with my intern friends!!!

Dinner with half of my awesome clique to celebrate da jie's birthday!

With our da jie!

Starbucks for coffee after lunch!! With Clare and Fony.

Oliver's farewell lunch!

Oliver's farewell!

Dinner with family after work!

Catch up session with Jamie and Jia Foong in Ipoh!!!! Love love love themm!

My intern companions when I work late night and my dinner companions - what more can I ask for!! ;p

Dinner after working late!

Dinner with my fav ppl!

At our fav place at level 12 - the pantry!

During our company's connect session with Tracy and Yi Xuan!

Brunch at Ku De Ta with sis! :)

With my sis at the Ipoh dinner!

With my pretty and handsome mom and dad!

Universal Studio with Mabel!!!

Sentosa with the Chiangrai gang!

Suntanning with Chiangrai gang at Sentosa!

Sentosa with my intern colleagues!

Dinner with my superrrrrr Sunset Way/Bukit Timah gang!

(More pics in FB!) 

I have no reason not to be thankful to be me despite being a lost sheep without aim and direction but with supportive family, close friends and good stuffs, I must really count my blessings.

P/s Please go and listen to A Thousand Years by Christina Perri!!!!!

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

I have died everyday waiting for you

How to brave

I have loved you for a thousand years, I love you for a thousand more

Such a beautiful song!!!!!

My apologies for the incredibly lack of updates!

For a moment, I kinda forgot I still have a blog to maintain. Hmmmmmm.

Work has been not too bad so far! Learning quite a bit everyday from my seniors. Must say they are all very nice people, in terms they are all quite willing to teach. So it would actually be unfair to them if I'd said work sucks. 

Have been out at client's place everyday, and the best thing I love about being in this client's place is their Nespresso coffee machine at the pantry! Hahahah! Glad I'm going back there for the final audit at year end. But my desk in the office is officially no longer mine. After not being in the office for 2 weeks plus. Sigh. 

And I also realized I've been facing my on-top-list enemy everyday at work - Excel. Remembered how much I hated Excel in school cause we get super complicated data and had to do funny funny stuffs with it. And I always get my other teammates to help me explain them in human language, instead of the comp language! Hahahah!

However, I must be grateful the most complicated thing I've did so far is pivot table - which is pretty much simple compared to my other peers, that work super closely with super complicated Excel functions I've never heard before! When I finally saw a decent pivot table, I thought that was a huge achievement for me! Hahaah well for a person that thinks Excel is stupid, I think it's an achievement.

Just I find waking up at 6am everyday is a pain. Hahahah!

But I still get to meet my favorite people for lunch, sometimes! One of the best parts about going to work is having lunch with them! Every time after our meal I would feel super reluctant to go back to office and work because it's like superrrr nice to see familiar faces around and I miss them everyday at work!!! Omggg

I love Fridays the most, because I get to spend extra long hours with them after work. We would go for nice dinners, then talk like there is no tomorrow, and move on to dessert and continue talking. Sometimes I kinda wonder what do we talk about at the end of the day. ;p

Oh yes, another thing, I submitted my final parcel over to UNSW last Friday, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed! 

Some pictures from my D&D!

With all the interns (seated) and seniors (standing)

All the interns!

Took this with for one of our senior's farewell.

And pics with my favorite people!

With Lian Shi, Wen Rong and da jie!

With my super chio da jie!

And Siti! Ohmygoodness I haven met her for the longest time!!! 

We took these Polaroids cause we gave Nigel a notebook with tonnes of pictures! 

Love this pic! Hahaha angle super good! 

With the birthday boy!

And his best friends, Isaac and Jasper!

Dinner with Lian Shi!

And Kit Yee :)

Tampopo Deli at Liang Court for Japanese food last Friday after work!

Had some black pig dish. Food was good, companion was even better :)

Have a great week ahead dear readers!

Life of an intern Vacation Trainee (yup that's our official title in PwC ;p)

Walking out from the building feeling half-dead every late evening with our insanely heavy company's laptop (and the super opiang laptop bag).

Laughing and giggling at our cubicles with my fellow interns over the smallest things to self-entertain.

Using tissue papers to chop seats during lunch.

Talking to the photocopying machine to be kind to us (without causing paper jams).

Going to work and practically greeting the whole building people good morning.

Looking at how our other colleagues dresses and get some inspiration on what to wear tomorrow or thinking about what to wear tomorrow about 4 plus in the evening.

Refreshing our Retain portal (our work timetable) every 5 seconds to see which audit client we're working on next.

It's been a week since work started! My first 4 days was training sessions and so it was pretty much like a lecture but the difference is just that all of us are attending lectures wearing formal business attire and lecture's not in Ngee Ann Poly ;p

It's really like a very new and different environment - everything just feels unfamiliar.

Mingling well with the other interns, in fact I think I made quite some new friends who are also interns from our school.

Also had my first CONNECT session in PwC on Thursday at Marina Barrage. Business lunch at 7th Story Restaurant and kite making & flying session. Our group's theme - Building relationships, creating value. Past financial year review and everyone focuses on being efficient and effective.

But I think sometimes we just live in a super incredibly competitive society. Really afraid whenever I see even interns trying to compete and outshine themselves from the rest. Well guess it's the scary side of human nature.

Other than that, I think work's fine - just tiring. I get really tired by the end of the day and it's a routine. But one thing I must admit about what I like about working is that we have our own personal time all by ourselves after work while in school we still have to come back and complete our tutorials/projects. But sometimes I do wake up in the middle of the night feeling stressed about next day's work. But I guess it's just me.

Had our weekly Friday outing yesterday and it was good to see very very familiar faces!!! I miss everybody!! Really! Though I was really exceptionally tired last evening. I finally experienced what people always say - absence makes the heart grow fonder. Everyday I think about my clique during lunch because we used to get to have lunch practically everyday together, whenever I need to press the lift myself, I will think about them because with them I wouldn't need to press the lift myself, and everyday in the midst of making new friends, I still indulge in reminiscing our good times together.  

Jap food at Watami at Ion :)

With Camellia, Siew Ling and Wen Rong!

And all of us with my half blocked face.

Really needs to be positive and that everything will be fine at the end of the day. 

HELLO PRICEWATERHOUSE COOPERS!!!!

Got my internship placement today, FINALLY! Got into Pricewaterhouse Coopers doing Auditing. 

On one hand, I am really glad and grateful for being able to get into my first choice company.

On the other hand, I am feeling so confused cause I am unsure whether is this what I really want - I was deciding between banks and Big 4.

Sometimes, I really think TOO much. Just too much. Sigh. I'm too free or what :(

I need to remind myself to be confident, not to look back and just do it. No regrets.

Anyways, took quite a bit of pictures in school this week! 

With Siew Ling at Marina Square!

At the field at Student Plaza!

At the library!

Siti, myself, Siew Ling and Nigel!

With Siew Ling in class!

Melanie, myself and Siew Ling. Heee

The girls at Alumni clubhouse.

With Siti!

Nicole crashed my lecture this week!!!!!!! :) 

Last Friday we went to Marina Barrage after class to take pics and have dinner! Heehe! With Siew Ling, Lian Shi and myself!

Goofing at the water feature.

The girls at the washroom!

In the train! With our tapau-ed food! :)

3 girls!

With Nigel and the Flyer at the back :)

Watching sunset with Marina Bay Sands and Flyer at the back ! :) 

When we arrived!

And 2 hours later! Really beautiful. My mobile didn't do justice to the place, really. Hahaha.

More pictures in FB :)

Honestly, I've been having quite a bit of emotional turmoil this week. I can't seem to control my emotions well enough and I can't help sometimes but to feel negatively. And it's really tiring, really. I don't exactly know what I want, or even how I feel. 

It just feels like everything is in a mess. 

I need to pack my emotions into boxes and take them out only when I need them.

Perhaps Bryan is right; quarter life crisis.